The second look

All of my little few years of life I've been told that life is set up to make me fail, but also to help me succeed. I've always been told that I have to try harder and do better then most because I'm AA and because of where I come from. Things have always been extremely easy and extremely hard. Never a middle ground. And I was told it was even harder for the boys. So at one time I did always try to do my work. Big try(fell asleep doing it alot :) at least I tried) And like most of my friends I'm alot more laid back now. This still sticks to me and alot of the people that I'm around because being where we were at we were surrounded by stupid people. We did a hell of alot more than them and did no better. I did alot of work only to still be out next to stupid people that got suspended every other week. Wherever I was at it seemed like if you weren't all A's or really bad you were just stuck. And to this day I remain to be stuck. I never really stuck out, but people were always quick to correct me when i took a look that entertained the thought of me doing something that I usually didn't do. Like how I usually think about things from other people's point of view and usually end up defending other people(I hate it) but the one time I actually just want to be mad at somebody and just not care about why they acted a certain way somebody else is quick to tell me "but look at it from their side." As much as I want to slap 3 different shades of hell out of this person for acting right in character where they usually don't at the time where I usually would I have to acknowledge that they're right(doing otherwise would make me ignorant and how i loathe ignorant people) But in life there is one thing that pisses me off more than any other thing that has and could ever happen to me. I have a best friend and by best friend I mean I knew this delinquent since we was in diapers. I grew up with this boy. This fool was left back 3 times and not because he was stupid, but because he was bad. He got put in special ed because he was bad. When I was in 7th grade he was in 4th. I remember that because he transferred into my school and I can't remember how many girls started talking to me because I knew him. Now although it makes me happy to some degree(not about the girls talking to me..... Never that I hated that) it still pissed me off that now me and him are in the same grade. Not because he got his shit together, but because when he was in 5th grade he beat up the 5th graders so much that they just put him in his right grade to see if he'd still act up with the 8th graders.He beat up the 8th graders too, but he was getting older so it wasn't as much. Now he is in 12th grade. He doesn't go to school anymore though because of unsaid reasons, but still!!! I'm happy that he was given the opportunity to be on track because he is my friend, but if he was anybody else there would be no glimpse of happiness thinking back on this. How can people expect me to do good in school and get straight A's in school when things like this happen? I go to school! He doesn't. Never did like that....He gets Z's. And he's in 12th grade... I get A's at times and he gets Z's and we're still in the same grade? That's why I don't do work now. I'm surrounded very few bright people, but mainly stupid people who ask stupid questions. They complain about the work that we get in this school which in all honestly I got more in 3rd grade(seriously) and they get like 2,3 weeks to do a project. And still turn it in late and complain about it. I turn my work in late, but I do not complain about it. They wanna wait till last minute to do 5 minute work and by last minute i mean end of the marking period and talk about they couldn't do it any time earlier. I know damn well that half the work given could be done in class with time to spare. I think I should stop before I say something I shouldn't say :) School is jail for me -_-' I thank the smart people in that school that help me get through my time there. You help make the world a safer place for stupid people from people like me :)Wait I don't like ya'll anymore lol.
~We're still at war~
The quote is: "Suffer no illusions my stupid ones. I do not like you:)"